It is so very hard to accept that everything I have worked 40 years to acquire is gone, for the second time in five years..
The first time, in 2004, my new house and all belongings burned to the ground. All was lost, nothing much recoverable. That was so devastating. But, it was an act of nature. No one to blame, just one of those things. We picked ourselves up and after two years of wrangling with mortgage companies and insurance companies we rebuilt and refurnished our home. We moved back in and thought "the worst has happened, everything else should be easy".
That started a downward spiral of bad events in my life. I lost my job and my company somehow has branded me as unemployable. So, in five years I have been unable to pass a background check. Not the criminal part, that is fine. It is something in the proprietary databases that companies use to run employment checks. I can't have access to it, so cant fix it.
My builder tried to charge me $60k in fraudulent charges at the end of the rebuilding project. And 2 years of litigation depleted any savings I had left.
Then my Dad got sick and passed away and more recently my Mom got sick.
During this time, I was able to eek out a very small living, but was unable to keep it up when I went to care for my Mom for 8 months. This is when the mortgage company decided to fast track the foreclosure and sale of my home; the home that I designed and built not once, but twice.
Now, I have lost everything once again, but this time it is not due to anything natural. It is due to the greed that is so prevalent in this country right now. This makes it almost unbearable.
BUT TODAY, I am taking steps to move on and I am slowly able to let go of the pain.
Today, I helped a dear friend from long ago build a place to store and share his poetry with the world. I helped him build a blog and taught him to add posts.. Please visit him here :
And I am helping a fellow quilter with a design for a wedding quilt. This project will result in a quilt pattern that she and I are willing to make available to you for FREE. You can read about it here:
I finished quilting a commission quilt and mailed it to her today. I hope she likes the work I did.
And I had a nice fabric order, which I will process and mail on Monday.
Today, my Son and Daughter-In-Law brought over their little dog to visit. I just love her and was so happy to see her.
The tears are still coming, my face is constantly leaking,
But, all in all, it was a good day.
As I move through this adventure, you may read about more down days. But I hope you will read more and more happy posts. I hope to meet and share with you some of the wonderful people of our country. I hope to find that I still believe in the human race and that there are more good, caring, moral and ethical people in our nation than the opposite. Maybe I can find a counter to track them. Ill go looking for that.